here and there

i've been struggling to keep up with this blog... mainly because i think i've been struggling to keep up with... myself.  and then with my 3 and a half year old.

tae turned three and a half last monday.  i've been trying to use that to get her to do new big kid things... like sleep in her own bed.  i have a feeling this is going to be a long, uphill, sleepless battle.

i got her some curtains from ikea to make her bedroom fancy and special.  the upshot of this was that we spent what felt like 10 hours playing in her room today.  i think she "slept" in her room alone for about 3 hours last night.  3 hours, which included her waking up, i think 5 times.  first she was just asking for me, then she says, "mommy, i can't see you!" and finally she says, "mommy, i want to sleep in your bed."  by the time she had escalated to crying out that she wanted to be in my bed, it was 2am, and i just wanted to sleep too.  and from 2am to 7am, i slept like a log.  and she did too.  sigh.

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tonight as i was putting tae to bed, she says to me, "i don't want you to leave.  ever ever.  i want you to sleep here with me." 

i should add that her bed is a toddler bed - and one reason that she ended up back in my bed was that i kept falling asleep in her bed when i went in to try to back to sleep.  and if my choice is sleeping with tae in her 4 foot long bed, or sleeping with tae in my queen size bed... well, the choice seems fairly obvious.  i'll choose not waking up with my knees cramped up to my chin.

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i discovered over the weekend that there's a video of tae dancing at my school's lunar new year celebration from february.  she wasn't even performing, just dancing off to the side of the stage.  it's on my school's youtube channel.  and while it's cute, i was kind of put off by the idea that there were videos of my kid on youtube, and i had no idea.  at least here, i'm in control of the flow of information.

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my school also had a big culture show last night.  tae had a blast watching rehearsals, running around the auditorium, and being in the fashion show.  the look on her face when she walked out with a student of mine was priceless.  she was her usual ham-it-up self - she did a little kick of her leg as she turned when she got front and center on the stage.  (if anyone sees youtube videos of this, please let me know!)

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i am very tired.  daylight savings isn't helping me anymore - today was a no-nap day... i was ready for a nap at 4pm, but guess who was running around the house like a tazmanian devil?  and guess who decided that she couldn't go to sleep while the sun was up?  oh, there's a part of me that wishes that sunset was still at 6pm.

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tae's been talking up a storm, and saying all of these really funny things... except i can't remember any of them now.  what a let down, right?  ok, clearly, it's bedtime for me. 

Comments

[Angie in Texas]

you know there's nothing wrong with taking a teeny tiny little power nap while tae plays with some puzzles, reads a book or watches a dvd. (it's really important for you to get that rest -esp. when your body is screaming it needs sleep!)

as for the kid in bed? wait until you start dating someone seriously enough and she sneaks into bed with you and your partner . . . jc is almost 5 and he still sneaks into my bed in the middle of the night - i usually don't notice or are sooo tired i can't do anything about it. (anma does so only occasionally 'cause the cats can't sleep in my bed and she really likes to sleep with her cats - only one at a time).